Okie...WTF..
Jess came back to toronto..she usually comes back every year around this time..if no one knows..jess and i have a little bit of a history..left undone..then she went away. far away..like hawaii far.something happend sunday...we got to do what we have been dieing to do for 6 years...it was amazing...after we left the pride stage..we were supposed to go back to kens..but instead we went on a little adventure spend some well needed time alone..it honestly was soooo wild..its like nothing els matter'd because i was with her again....this year was kinda different from all the other years she came home..beacause this year i was single..and we were both able to do what we wanted..LoL..urgh..she goes back to hawaii on the 4th..and its going to be harder then ever to say goodbye to her this year..my heart is honestly broken just thinking about it...i promised that i would come see her in hawaii...man..i have some serious thikning to do...were just going to spend as much time as we can with eachother untill she leaves..and then i gota start thinking about the future....
Tre
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Ok Ok but seriously, ahh kiddo, you really know how to get yourself in trouble. We talked about this already on phone.
But I'll repeat myself, I really think you should try being single for a while. take no offense but since the major break you've gone from girl, to girl, to girl, to girl...I can't remember them all..well most of them others not coz I didn't see you then.
Maybe it's time as you've said in previous posts to truly focus on yourself, stay single and be single for a while. Yes, make best friends with either the right or the left hand for a bit. Oh I know that sucks but you haven't had time to focus on yourself and what you wannt and where you want to go.
You break to many hearts and get yours broken as well.
You need to just take a step back stay away from the relationship and see if you can get where you want to go on your own, shiteryu...errr ya know!.
I'm always here to talk if you want. I love you man but I know how easily you get yourself in trouble and can't help but chuckle.
Try not to hurt anybody anymore, it's not worth losing a good friendship over.
Maybe after this whirlwind yah just take a break from it all. I could go on, but then this really will become a massive wall-o-text...so I'll end on this note. Don't get to caught up in the moment or more than just two ppl may get hurt. Just keep your head on straight and figure out what you want and who 'you are'. I know you know but the single you silly..
Aiite I'm out to finish my tea. Take care..
Good gawd, that ^ was long! Sorry!
Well she's got a good name ;)
..and I assume she's wikkid, if you're interested in her.
Buttttttt I think Laura has a point-about being single, you know....
YOU gotta be happy before you can be happy WITH someone, you know?
And I mean really happy with life...not just happy ENOUGH and thinking once you add a partner it will be complete, you know?
Laura made a good point about maybe fucking up a friendship too...that's a good point!
But also, chew on this...maybe it's only so..so...um....INTENSE? [I think that word works] because it's been built up so much....you thinking you want her, or that it COULD have or maybe still could WORK over a period of years?
I know with me, I usually want what I can't have...
Either way, I'm here for ya, and whatever you do I'll be here for ya <3
xoxo
Sounds like quite the little adventure ;)
...and Tre, although yes, I have advocated the "being single" approach, everybody needs some time to find themselves. That being said, you've always got to do what YOU feel is right for YOU.
Clearly you have some history with this girl (and completely forget about the 'being single' thing for a minute - follow your heart... it's not like you were looking for this, right? It's just kind of always been there?) and that speaks volumes... BUT... now you have to figure out where it goes from here.... Laura and Melissa both make great points, it just depends where you see things going, and how you view the situation overall.
At least listen to what your gut is saying... you have to figure out if you want to risk the friendship, and also if things are so intense simply because of the distance/sexual restrictions the two of you have had on you before... maybe it's hotter to you because you couldn't just have it when you wanted it before... this was special... and that's what you have to remember.
Your heart will point you in the direction that you WANT to go... but your rational side has to kick in also, and sort out what is possible... what you want... etc.
Honest bro, if you really like the girl, and you think the two of you can make it work; that's awesome! But otherwise, just look out for what you think is best for yourself... only you know that.
Miss you,
Your noodle lover
Agree with all above...though I still kinda have to vouche for singledom...I said it once I'll say it again, I've yet to see you single truly single since, dare I say it, Sarah.
I know I know you have a history with this girl, and if it works it's a beautiful thing. I also see sadly you getting in trouble again and ruining a good friendship with another girl. Which is saddening because she seemed really nice and finally was one of the girls that didn't make you have to *ahem* change your number..somehow, I see that happening or you just not caring.
I agree love only comes or rarely comes but when it does you should go for it; however, I also
(Ken says hi and was buggin me so I lost my train of thought, HI JESS & Meliss...he also said something about sherpies???)
Ok back to the topic at hand...ummm however, I also still think you should opt for singledom full singledom not semi-singledome where you basically have a long distance relationship with a girl holding out til you see her again...Because really then you aren't single and you are working towards getting something to work with you and another. Wakaru?...ahh you understand?>
With that said you aren't fully doing the things you do making the decisions you make for yourself but you have a slight influence in there. Am I making sense...?
Ken's really getting talkative for the 'morning'...
There is so much I could say, go on repeat, annalyze and so forth..most stuff is good to say in writing because you can read and re-read it over; however, sometimes it's easier for me to say it in person.
Tre, do what you want to do what your heart wants to do but also do it for you and noone else and try not to get caught up in the moment. Because that is maybe what is happening.
I feel sometimes you are just scared to be single again and that is partly why I have yet to see you without a girlfriend since Sarah. If this is fustrating or hurting you to read i apologize but it needs to be said. I don't want you making crazy in the heat of the moment decisions. I care about you and worry about you and just don't want to see repeat after repeat...it's only from what I've seen...it's a bad assumption on my part probably but it's also may have some truth.
Now I'll end this here because I'm sure somewhere along this rant I've gone amiss and off track or just started talking straight out of my ass and don't have a proper flow of thoughts.
Just be true to yourself!
~ Laura
p.s. how many times did I repeat myself? haha oh dear..kk Ken is buggin me gotta jet again he says HIIII....Sherpies and some other random stuff...???
p.s.s. I've never had so much trouble trying to post...blogs are confusing to me.
SHERPIESSSSSSSS!!! Tell Alf I send him sherpielove <3.... hugs and kisses to you both!
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